Thre's a time in ma life when i feel i'm all alone... i keep on thinking that this is not ma place... that i don't belong here, and i shouldn't be here... i was thinking that, being here is d most biggest mistake i ever made...
At tht time life is so Hurt, that i feel like i couldn't bear it any longer... d pain n misery kill me inside... i'm Dead!
i can't bear those feeling... so, i decide to run away to my perfect world of imagination... i create a wonderful world where there only good things inside... but no matter how hard i try to hide, the reality is always there..in front of me... i have to face it and overcome ma weakness in order to live ma life... (but, at that time i thought i will never able to..)
thus, i start to envy people around me... how they can live their life with determination... i know it's silly (just realize afterward..) coz everybody have their own misery, that i can't imagine...
if i have to judge it fairly... there's no reason for me to think that i'm more miserable that everyone else... but i couldn't help but to think that way.. (well, at those dark time i can thinking only in my point of view.. what a selfish!!)
at those gray day... unexpectedly, the one who save me is actually the one who i envy the most... when i see them... i start to realize their pain and how they can still stand over the world...
ahh.. how foolish i am for wanting a life like they have, coz i know i couldn't be like them... how could i ever be like when i couldn't even overcome ma own pain!?
those wonderful person thought me that life is never easier for anybody... it's just somepeople choose to deal with it in order to enjoy what life give to them and be what ever they could be... and, in the other hands..somepeople tend to running away by blamming others and yelling over nothing...
and also, it's becouse i have experience those pain n misery, i am what i am now.
i'm not regret neither crush it, coz i love the way i'm now... n to be able to meet those wonderful person, i sure am fortunate!!
Life is Fortunate... You Just need To See Beyond What U Can See!!!
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